21 Day Challenge Day 3

Day 3

Food
Breakfast : Muller Bliss Corner & Raspberries
Lunch : Pitta Pizza
Tea : Pasta Bolognese & Garlic Thins
Snacks : Peach, Belvita Cocoa Biscuits

Moving More : 15545 Steps 

Mood - Feeling really proud today.

Talked myself out of having chocolate from the vending machine,  said no to chocolate biscuits when offered at work and most importantly I didn't call for a "Secret" McDonalds on the way home today.  I finish early on a Wednesday, the one day of the week I get to be a school run mum and I have created myself a really bad habit of going through the drive through for something to eat, but not telling anyone.  Today I didn't even consider it - Result

Also been out for a 3 mile walk tonight, had to convince myself it was a good idea as really didn't feel like it but told myself I would walk til I was 1 1/2 miles then turn around and come back.  Reminded myself all the way there that I am allowed an hour to be about me, still felt guilty but feels good now I have done it.  (slightly achy legs tho)

21 Day Challenge Day 2

Day 2

Food
Breakfast : Raspberry Smoothie
Lunch : Chicken Tikka Salad & Pitta, Mullerlight Yogurt
Tea : Pitta Pizza, Homemade Wedges & Salad
Snacks : Minstrels

Moving More : 11148 Steps 

Mood - Good, positive and still motivated.

Being organised, planning ahead and taking the time to prepare meals in advance is proving the key to staying in control.  Really pleased with myself tonight, got in from work and sat down, it then took all my will power to get back up again and go out for a walk.  Tea was amazing, forgot how much i enjoy Pitta Pizza.  (Even made one for tomorrow's lunch)

21 Day Challenge Day 1

Day 1

Food
Breakfast : Bliss Corner Yogurt & Raspberries
Lunch : Tuna & Sweetcorn Pasta
Tea : Chicken Lattice, Oven Chips & Sweetcorn
Snacks : Peach & Pink Wafer Biscuit

Moving More : 9771 Steps 

Mood - Feeling in control and feeling good.  Full of motivation and optimism for the next few days. 

Creating New Habits

I have spent the last week or so thinking too much.  I have been watching a serious of The Biggest Loser on catch up and it has got me thinking (and motivated.)

Why do I do it, what is it in my head that makes me eat so much.  Is it something from my past that has made me an emotional eater, was food a reward for good behavior, I eat it then its like a punishment because I gain weight, so why do it !!

Why do I eat in secret so much, is it if no one sees it then I never ate it ?  I do this a lot, a very very bad habit

Why do I have an excuse for everything ?  Too Tired, No Time, My Family Comes First, I don't do mornings, and the list goes on.

I 100% believe in a positive mind and a positive approach to life so why is it I find myself dwelling on the negative's without even realizing it.  And the Law of Attraction is quite clear, what you feel and think about most is what you bring to yourself.

So after much deliberating and questioning I have decided to stop trying to work out why I do what I do, does it really matter, is it going to make it better, No I don't think it will.  I spend more time thinking about being fat then actually trying to become skinny, so if I think about being fat, then its more likely I will stay like this and get bigger along the way. 

No more why's and what for's, Time for change.

So here I am at day one of creating new habits.  According to Google, somebody somewhere decided a new habit is created in 21 days, so I am going to record my new habits for the next 21 days and see if they stick.  I have decided to keep to achievable goals so I don't set myself up to fail.

Earlier mornings - currently I drag my slightly over-sized rear out of bed at the latest possible moment then rush around like a nutter getting everything ready to get out the door for 8am.

No Diet drinks after 9pm (unless I am out) - sounds a weird one but I struggle to fall asleep at night and I believe a good amount of this is due to the huge amounts of caffeine I am drinking through the day.  Then the tiredness kicks in as the week goes on and then I eat more and don't have any energy

Hit my daily steps targets - currently set at 8k on my Fitbit, to increase to 9k next week and 10k the week after.  

Put myself first - realising I am worth it is a hard one the get my head around, realising that sometimes being a little selfish is ok.  This is going to be the hardest one for me but I am going to try.

I am excited to be heading into my mini challenge for the next 21 days.  Watch out for my daily updates.

Dolittle x

Staying Determined

I am seriously struggling tonight but I know it's mostly to do with being tired.  It always seems to be one of the common factors when I want to reach for snacks on an evening.  So I decided to come on here and write, if I am typing I can't be eating.

I have been really good this week I am still on a vending machine strike and even managing to avoid the free rolo's this week at work, Amazing I know LOL  Snacks are being kept to a minimum, more water is being consumed and walking in my lunchtime is back on the agenda.

But I am finding it hard, especially when I am tired, to motivate myself to come home and cook.  That said I have still been making myself do it and it really does give me sense of achievement knowing I have not given in to the easy options.  I have also reminded myself how much I enjoy cooking, once I get started that is.  I enjoying making something out of nothing last night : Wholemeal Pasta, Peppers, Mushrooms, Chicken and Sweet Chilli Soft Cheese

Now tonight was the worst night so far but I stuck it out and threw together a pitta pizza, OMG it was amazing.  It was very tasty and felt really naughty all at the same time.  I forgot how much I liked them.  (Even made one for tomorrow's lunch)

As hard as it sometimes is to stay on track I am finding the feeling of staying in control more than enough to keep me going.  I know I will have bad days where I will want to give in but today is a good day, tomorrow is already planned and then I am half way through the second week.

After my 3lb loss last week I am determined to have another good week this week, and next week, and the week after.  

Old habits are hard to break

Finally back to having a laptop so i can get back to writing on something bigger than a mobile phone. Looking through here and realising how easy it is to go back to your old ways,  thinking i had learnt so much but obviously hadn't learnt anything or I wouldn't be back where I started (well nearly).

I like to believe that I haven't failed as I have never given up.  I have doubted whether I am following the right plan over the passed few months.  If it's not working then maybe I was on the wrong path, maybe I needed to choose a new direction, like being at a dead end and needing to retrace your steps to the last crossroads and choose to travel a different road.

For now I am going with the common sense approach, adding in what I have learnt with weight watchers.  I am cutting out the snacks, aiming to have smaller portions, and moving more.  Seems very simple but time will tell.

I have proved to myself how easy it is to fall back into the old habits like the vending machine snacks, the larger portion sizes and the secret eating.  A recipe for an unhappy, unhealthy life and not the way i want to live.

I recently read that getting to your destination, your dream, can sometimes mean taking the wrong turns, reaching what seems like a dead end, but I have now realised that this is ok as long as we see them as lessons and learn from them until we get it right.  I am on a journey with lots of turns and know I will finally get it right.

Weigh in tomorrow morning and feeling optimistic for the first time in a while.

Hello 2015

Well here I am again, back where I started or near enough.  

2014 was a write off as far as my diet went, stupidly I never saw myself as not being on a diet, I never thought I had given up but when you get to the end of the year and realise you have gained nearly all of the three stone you lost the year before it makes you realise it was a disaster.  

What damage would I have done if I hadn't been consciously trying to stick to it, scary thought indeed.  It also shows me how easy it is to put it back on.  Why did it happen, I don't know.  I spend far too much of my life trying to work out why things happen, why did I do things the way I have and I don't have the answers.  All the answers sound like excuses and I don't see the point in spending too much time dwelling on the past, I cant change it, and all I will do is beat myself up over it.  

So 2015 is here, I had already psyched myself into knowing this is going to be a good year, it's funny how positive thinking can make you feel and act in a positive way.  Even before the turn of the year I knew I was going to rejoin a ww meeting.  I am optimistic it will help get me back on track and I am hopeful that the meetings will help build on my enthusiasm and positive approach to changing my way of life.  Let's also hope it's not the same things I have been told every other time I have been, I need a challenge to keep me focussed and I am hoping the new changes to the plan will do that.

I also knew I was going to be what might seem a little selfish this year.  I am going to put myself first for a change.  I spent too much of last year putting myself last and it made me far from happy so this year will be different.  My family are my world and keeping others happy does not always make us happy so no more, enough said.

So I sit here, finally writing again and realising how I have missed it. Writing helped me in 2013 to keep focussed so I am hoping it does the same this year.  

Happy New Year and 2015 I am coming to get you !!!!