Back to Basics

I have been unable to go to my weigh in tonight so I am unsure of how my week has gone, not too good if I go by my own assessment but then I wouldn't know as I haven't tracked. (slapped wrists I know)

What I have done this week is quite a lot of thinking, usually dangerous for me i know but all the same I have.  My week began with a few bad days and as the rollercoaster WW is I went through lots of stages and emotions as to why I do it, angry mainly as I should know better by now.  The whole "only half a pound" arguement kept rearing its ugly head and I realised I put too much pressure on myself to lose quicker than I do.

Why do I need more than half at a time?  I don't !  Aslong as its coming off and not going on I should be happy.

I then realised I have been doing this all year, setting myself targets of where to get to by certain dates and then when I don't I feel like a failure, which in turn makes me feel low, and then when I feel low I turn to food, no surprise there tho.

I also realised how much I do to try and show others I can do this, when stupidly I already know I can.  I know I will get to goal, no doubt in my mind it's just when.

So no more pressure, no more worrying what others think or feeling I need to prove myself by losing it fast.  I can only learn more by finding my way, no matter how long or hard, and the more I learn the more I can pass on if I ever follow up the idea of being a leader.

So here I am, new week, and I have decided its simply a week of back to basics.

Plan Shop Track

 

My challenge this week is to do what it says on the tin, weight watchers works if you do what it says, so I have planned as you can see from my pictures.  Both food plan and moving more plan ready to follow (let's not call it exercise as its evil lol)  I am out Saturday so no plan as I don't know where I will be and I have a training day next Wednesday so will play that by ear when I am there, other than that I am sticking to it and will share my normal menu pictures on Facebook for all to see.
This may not seem like much of a challenge but as I have gotten out of the habit of tracking i see it as an important challenge.

Here we go again, hoping to get to meeting next week if i am back from training, but if not I will find another one to make sure I know where I am at.
Dolittle x x 

September Challenge

Lets start with the good news, i lost 5lb tonight and i am over the moon with it.  Four weeks away from meetings and gained 4lb Then to lose it plus a little more the week after is amazing, just showing that if you get straight back into it you can stop it spiralling out of control.  Now to keep the momentum going.

Another month has passed, or near enough and it means I am one step closer to the end of 2013.  2013, my year to shine ! and as much as I feel I have gained a little of my sparkle back I am far from shining.  I will reach my 50lb by the end of the year, and don't doubt it but feel I need a little bit of a challenge to help get me there.  Don't get me wrong it's not my motivation, getting to goal is my motivation but short term focus gets you through each month.

So here I am setting myself, and anyone that wants to join me, a September challenge.  A short term goal, a little bit of something to drive us forward, keep me focussed and something to spend my week concentrating on.  

I challenge myself to 3 simple things:

1. Lose 7lb in September - I am giving myself 5 weigh in days taking me to the first Wednesday in October, just before my wedding anniversary.

2. Each week I will try at least one new food, whether it be a recipe, a ready meal, a vegetable, just something new that I haven't tried before, after all weight watchers is a lifestyle change so small changes are to be made.

3. Each week I will try something new in my attempt to Move More, Sit Less.  I recently described exercise as my WW Achilles heal, the one thing I can't seem to learn to love so time to try new things even if it is only once, I will try.

That's it, simple.  

17 weeks til Christmas brings home the reality of how long I have to lose my 19lb to reach my 50lb goal, it's a reminder of how fast the weeks and months are flying past, and before I know it I will be reflecting on 2013 and wondering if I achieved what I wanted.  So far so good !

The new magazine hit the meetings today, I have been moved to the members section in the back, especially there for members of weight watcheexcluding I can be classed as exclusive lol.  it's an amazing feeling being able to share this journey with like minded people who understand how it feels to struggle to lose weight.   

Night all, Dolittle x x 

Better late than never

Finally getting round to updating, only one word to describe my date with the scales this week - Gutted 

Half a pound, really only half a pound.  To say I wasn't amused was an understatement.  Tried so hard, was enthusiastic, motivated, positive, all of the right feelings, then half a pound Grrrrrrrrr.

So as I do in true WW fashion I have a few bad days, instead of doing the right thing and giving myself some great advice that I would have given anyone else, the simple it will catch up next week, or it's still a loss, or keep going and it will show more next week, no instead of going with common sense I went into a "sod it I am having what I want today, which went into two days. Ah why do I do it to myself.  

Stupid thing is I was out with my first WW leader on Thursday and when i didn't hesitate at the dessert board she asked " is this because of last nights weigh in". I said no just having a night off, she obviously knows me very well.

Well today is a new day, full of motivation again so planned my week, been shopping this morning and have spent all afternoon on the kitchen making batches of meals ready for this week.  So chuffed with myself, a £5 pack of extra lean mince has made 2 lasagne, 2 portions of savoury mince ready for shepherds pie and mince and dumplings for Alan and a huge bowl of chilli busy cooking in the slow cooker , the kitchen smells amazing and the feeling of satisfaction is making me feel great.  To the point I am typing so fast and making lots of mistakes, it's like a cooking adrenaline rush haha.

Not sure if it that makes make sad, but I can handle slim and sad lol

As for this weeks challenge I decided another new recipe was on the cards after my very successful Pulled Pork last week.  This week is Fanta Chicken and BBQ pulled pork, not to mention another omelette.  And trying to add in some fruit, not a fan of it, don't think it's worth eating what I don't enjoy BUT I know it's good for me and I am trying to encourage Jack to eat more so trying to lead by example.  Also trying to have different breakfasts as its so easy to have the same thing everyday.

As for exercise, well other than still thinking its evil I have decided on a new approach to exercise this week.  I realised last week that climbing the eiffel tower was a little ambitious but managed it by weigh in on Wednesday, (not that it showed at the scales) Not so much because I couldn't physically do it but time to fit it in was tricky for me.

I have always said I didn't have time for exercise, not being quite sure if i was just making excuses, but last week showed I don't have much time.  I was doing small sets of climbing the stairs then realising late at night I still had more to do, 11pm is not the time to be marching up and down your stairs like a pet elephant.

This week I have decided to do at least three sets of ten a day, whether it be 10 minutes walk in my lunch time, 10 minutes on my vibro machine, 10 times up and down the stairs, 10 minutes on the wii fit.  I can fit in small amounts during my day but I cannot fit in half hours here and there.  I often see people losing more than me, faster than me and I want to lose my weight faster then I realise they don't have my life.  My life is a full time working wife and mum,  leave home at 8am and return about 5.30pm,  feed my son and spend some much needed time with him, then make tea for Alan and I. By the time we are all done its nearer 8pm.  I don't want to or have time to attend 5 exercise classes a week, or time to go to the gym every other night, so I will just have to except my weight will come off slower than people that can do that.

Fingers crossed I haven't done too much damage in the last two days and can lose more than a stupid half pound this week.  (I know it's still a loss but it's not good enough grrr)

Right off out for a meal, no dessert for me this time tho x x x x x