Finally back to having a laptop so i can get back to writing on something bigger than a mobile phone. Looking through here and realising how easy it is to go back to your old ways, thinking i had learnt so much but obviously hadn't learnt anything or I wouldn't be back where I started (well nearly).
I like to believe that I haven't failed as I have never given up. I have doubted whether I am following the right plan over the passed few months. If it's not working then maybe I was on the wrong path, maybe I needed to choose a new direction, like being at a dead end and needing to retrace your steps to the last crossroads and choose to travel a different road.
For now I am going with the common sense approach, adding in what I have learnt with weight watchers. I am cutting out the snacks, aiming to have smaller portions, and moving more. Seems very simple but time will tell.
I have proved to myself how easy it is to fall back into the old habits like the vending machine snacks, the larger portion sizes and the secret eating. A recipe for an unhappy, unhealthy life and not the way i want to live.
I recently read that getting to your destination, your dream, can sometimes mean taking the wrong turns, reaching what seems like a dead end, but I have now realised that this is ok as long as we see them as lessons and learn from them until we get it right. I am on a journey with lots of turns and know I will finally get it right.
Weigh in tomorrow morning and feeling optimistic for the first time in a while.
