Well here I am again, back where I started or near enough.
2014 was a write off as far as my diet went, stupidly I never saw myself as not being on a diet, I never thought I had given up but when you get to the end of the year and realise you have gained nearly all of the three stone you lost the year before it makes you realise it was a disaster.
What damage would I have done if I hadn't been consciously trying to stick to it, scary thought indeed. It also shows me how easy it is to put it back on. Why did it happen, I don't know. I spend far too much of my life trying to work out why things happen, why did I do things the way I have and I don't have the answers. All the answers sound like excuses and I don't see the point in spending too much time dwelling on the past, I cant change it, and all I will do is beat myself up over it.
So 2015 is here, I had already psyched myself into knowing this is going to be a good year, it's funny how positive thinking can make you feel and act in a positive way. Even before the turn of the year I knew I was going to rejoin a ww meeting. I am optimistic it will help get me back on track and I am hopeful that the meetings will help build on my enthusiasm and positive approach to changing my way of life. Let's also hope it's not the same things I have been told every other time I have been, I need a challenge to keep me focussed and I am hoping the new changes to the plan will do that.
I also knew I was going to be what might seem a little selfish this year. I am going to put myself first for a change. I spent too much of last year putting myself last and it made me far from happy so this year will be different. My family are my world and keeping others happy does not always make us happy so no more, enough said.
So I sit here, finally writing again and realising how I have missed it. Writing helped me in 2013 to keep focussed so I am hoping it does the same this year.
Happy New Year and 2015 I am coming to get you !!!!
