Confessions of a Weight Watcher

I am more than happy to share my good days so think its only fair to confess my sins on one of my worst days.

Yesterday was a disaster !

Why do I do it, everything is going great, back on track and losing again and then it goes wrong.  This list of food is not for the faint hearted and I think I could give Man v Food a run for his money but here goes

9.00am - Bacon and Sausage Sandwich - (not a small one either) bought from a sandwich van that come around work.  this is what happens when you don't have breakfast before you go to work and don't make the effort to take any.

9.45am - Malteser Cake - same sandwich van and 100% down to no will power.  Worst bit was it wasn't even that nice, mine tastes better but it didn't stop me inhaling it.

11.30am - Cadburys Twirl

1.30pm - McDonalds McChciken sandwich Meal, Large of course, with diet coke hoping the word "Diet"makes what I have eaten not so bad - yeah right !!

Mid afternoon - Cadburys Caramel- inhaled, ate it so fast don't really remember it.

5.15pm - Packet of Ritz Crackers - bought for my son but opened the multipack while driving home and one bag gone, guess I should be pleased I only ate one.

6.30pm - Mini Pizza and a few potato wedges - my brother had a small Halloween party for the kids and I wasn't having food but gave in, scarily when no one was looking.

7.45pm - Jumbo Sausage and chips for the chip shop - now not enjoying food but still eating it.

After 9pm - Pickled Onion Crisps, 4 or 5 chocolate fingers

                            

Omg what a pig I was - when you write it down, (because I obviously didn't track any of it) it looks worse than I remember.  But then why would I remember as most of it I ate with out thinking.

Now to the reason why, well I wish I knew.  Part of me had given myself a day off, with out really meaning too.  School holidays, hubby at home and I was just having to look after myself for lunch at work.  It was if I was giving myself the freedom to have what I want as Alan wasn't there to see me eat naughty food, and I could please myself as to what I had. ( Too much it would seem)

I also realised I am a bit of a secret eater, the only meals / food anyone saw me eat was after 6.30pm, only I knew how much I had consumed in one day.  Well now everyone can know and I am pleased to say today has been a lot better.  Not 100% mind, I am feeling the need to snack but have been having to argue with my will power again. i may blame mother nature and hormones and move on from it.  

I am now off work for a few days so need to try and keep on track while out of routine so going to make a big pan of homemade soup to keep me full and try not to be tempted with to many Halloween treats.

Let's hope my day of binging doesn't show too bad on Saturday after all not long til Christmas and I want a few more pounds off before then.

Dolittle xxx

Going Online

After nearly a year back at Weight Watchers I have decided to give WW Online a go.

Why ??

Well why not, over the last few months I have found getting to meetings more of a struggle than an enjoyment.  A mixture of Hubby working late so I don't stay as I have Jack, or something else comes up and becomes more important.  Then the meetings died down to very few people over the summer and i missed the support of other members, the meeting is small anyway so when only 3 or 4 people stay I wasn't coming away with anything.  Some weeks I was paying to stand on a set of scales - seems a waste.   And now the dark and cold nights are here and I really don't want to be going out on these nights so here I am an online member.

I didn't want to give up and I want to be subscribed to ww for when i get to goal and want to become a leader myself (well maybe). So after weeks of trying to decide what to do I decided to go online, £11.95 a month ( much cheaper than my meeting fees as i didn't have a monthly pass).  I am weighing at home every Saturday morning with Alan as my support, we are doing it together and he will keep me right. 

I have been online a week and I am already addicted to the WW app on my phone and Ipad, tracking everything as i go and not in my journal at the end of the day.  Its funny how seeing it on there makes it so much more real, you cant "tweak" or "guesstimate" how many pp are in things as the app is telling me how many. 

I have switched to have a few filling and healthy days, which are now alot more approachable for me than before.  I now choose them on busy days on a weekend, the kind of day when I know I will be too busy for snacking so no temptation to use weekly points, and too busy to have to worry about counting and measuring.  I still plan them in advance though to make sure I have the right things in.

I am loving Saturday morning weigh in's, weekends have always been my weight loss hot spots, the times it can all go wrong, then i would spend the next three days leading up to my midweek weigh in, either trying to starve myself, wracked with guilt, or thinking I had already blown it so start again Thursday.  Now if my weekend goes a little off track it can be my 49 weekly points, it was lovely last week not panicking for getting myself back on track for the Wednesday night.

My first week online resulted in another 3lb gone, this is more than i have lost in a few weeks, to the point I had been gaining again and heading backwards.  Making the decision to join online seems to have lifted a weight of my shoulders that I didn't realise I was carrying.  I feel good, I have had a great week and have another great week planned. 

It saddens me to think that my Yo Yo ing seems to have jeopardised my aim for 50lb this year, i was so determined to get there but I need to be realistic and just keep aiming to lose every week and not focus on how much, by when and for what.  Just for me to lose each week and get to goal sometime in the near future is enough.  No pressure !

Wish me luck x x x

Cooking it Slow . . .

My new favourite kitchen gadget is my slow cooker, to the point I have even bought a second smaller one.  

Big Cook Little Cook !!

 

I have had my bigger slow cooker for a couple of years but only ever made simple things in it, chicken in gravy or braising steak.  I was recently added to a facebook group for "Slow Cooker Saddo's" by a WW facebook friend, Sue, and my eyes were opened to a whole new world of cooking.  I thought slow cookers were for casseroles and soups but now i know different.

The lovely ladies at the weight watchers magazine kindly added a slow cooker recipe to the page with my column this month, Spanish Chicken and rice, and wow it was good.  I have now made it twice, modified the recipe to make it for one and the second time added Butternut squash chips and salad to fill my plate for no more points, my kind of food.  (This whole meal was only 9pp)

 

 

Tonight I have made homemade bread in the larger cooker to go with a huge pan of homemade bacon and lentil soup, warm, comforting food on cold, autumn nights, nothing nicer.  All of us liked the bread and i still cant believe how well it turned out.  I wouldnt make it every week as its not the lowest pointed bread at 3pp for 45g, but it was filling and really tasty.

 

 

Another success was Pulled Pork, great for a filling and healthy day so no counting or measuring.  I made mine into hot pork sandwiches inside WW petit pains, they were amazing.

A few things are not so weight watcher friendly, like the rice pudding I made but as long as I am cooking it I can easily work out the pro points per portion so I don't miss out on all the goodies I am making.

Jack wants me to make Nutella Swirls next and I want to try lasagne, the list is endless and I have never enjoyed cooking so many homemade meals as I am now.

Now to save for an Actifry or maybe ask Santa for one ;-)